How Will You Know??


When the relationship feels comfortable. When there is peace. When I feel confirmation from the Holy Spirit that I can believe the words that come out of his mouth. I have been sweet talked and pursued before, but this time it will be different.

We’ll have similar beliefs. Similar passions for honoring and seeking God in our present and our futures. He’ll understand my pain because he will have lived through his own. He’ll be tender and understanding. He’ll love my smile, understand my tears, and appreciate my heart. He’ll look for hobbies we can enjoy together. He’ll want to know and love my kids.

He’ll be intentional, but not pushy. He’ll encourage me to follow my peace and convictions. We’ll study and worship together.

He’ll be clear about his plans and want me in them. He’ll be generous with his time, money, and attention. He’ll be a giver.

He’ll have nothing to hide from me. We’ll both be open books. We’ll share our struggles and lessons learned. Our friendship will be our foundation. Oh, how sweet that will be.

I’ve shared before that I’m not a fan of dating. It’s so hard, especially with kids watching. But, this relationship? I’ll be a fan. And, it will be fun.

I trust that God is leading and, if it ends, I will still know that He is leading and be proud and much more aware of the courage it takes to put our true selves out there…




Live Loved

stony heart

For a girl who grew up questioning love, living loved is a phenomenon. Learning about and growing aware of God’s love for me is a continuous life changer. His love allows me the freedom to speak. To feel. To let go of perfection. To walk away. To walk towards. To be me. To really live.

When we question love, we seek constant approval from others. Constantly wondering “Do they love me?”, “Did I do something wrong?”, “Did I say something wrong?” We latch onto those who don’t show us love and try to change their minds or squeeze it out of them. Thinking if they do, we will have proved our “lovability”. This leads to a prison of pain that the devil wants nothing more than to keep us locked away in. Constantly seeking love. Jesus’s unfailing love turns the key to this prison, wraps us up, feeds us, and slowly but surely and consistently loves us back to life. In turn, we long for others to feel this new love we have in our heart. This love that warms and reassures our questioning hearts like never before.

And I will give you a new heart, and a new spirit I will put within you. And I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh. Ezekiel 36:26  (ESV)

I used to think a “heart of stone” meant only apathetic, unloving, uncaring, mean. A hard heart. While, no doubt, God’s love can soften a heart like this and turn it completely around. My “heart of stone” felt opposite. It felt too soft. Hurt and scared. Unloved, desperate, clueless, unaware of this Great Love just yearning for me to take notice and strengthen it. To feel it. To live in it. To immerse my thirsty heart in this unending and unexplainable love. Living aware of His love changes everything! Remember this when you feel rejected or abandoned. He’s still right there. He never left. He’ll never leave. He loves you more than any human being ever has, ever could, or ever will.

God’s love will soften and strengthen our hearts of stone. He will turn them into hearts of flesh filled with His Spirit. Are you thirsty? Hard? Soft? Hurt? Consider the Ultimate Source. His love is the source of unquenchable love we seek. Our desperate (stony) hearts looking high and low for acceptance and approval can rest easy and come to life in His love. Soak it in, squeeze it out by sharing with others, and go for another soak.

Live loved today and every day. Because you are.