Bathsheba’s Husband..?

When we consider people treated “unfairly” in the Bible, a few come to mind. We have Joseph thrown in the pit by his jealous brothers, the fiery furnace story, the lion’s den, and of course, Job. All these men were pushed into unimaginable circumstances and places.

When we even attempt to put ourselves in their shoes (or sandals), we catch a glimpse of how dire their situations were. How they wondered if and how they’d be saved. Each one had faith to finally say…”Even if, Lord. I’m with you.” The faith that inspires us and moves God. The faith The Lord wants us to have.

In each of these stories, the people did survive though. Miraculously, of course. God allowed them to see another day. And He got all the Glory for their stories. Exactly as He should. Praise Him!

The Bible says Job was even more blessed in his latter years than his previous ones. The ones taken from him because of a spiritual bet between God and Satan that he never even knew about. Was that fair? God allowed it and trusted Job. Even though and even if. And, he was rewarded on earth as he will be in heaven.

But, what about Bathsheba’s husband? I have so much compassion for this man. You’ve heard the phrase “Sometimes we are just the collateral damage in someone else’s war against themselves.” Talk about some collateral damage for this guy!

Now, we don’t know if there was a wager made in heaven about him. We only know there was for Job because it was written about. We know he couldn’t have been perfect, because he was human. But, all we are told about him is that he was faithful. Faithful to his king and his wife. And still….gets murdered. Not just by some “bad guy”, but by the guy we know as “The man after God’s own heart.” Man, does that feel unfair.

We know David repented for cheating with his wife and murdering him. After the fact. David’s heart broke into a million pieces for what he did. David’s family had issues because of it and he lived with his own consequences. But, when I think of how unfair life can be to some. Some who don’t deserve it, my mind goes back to Bathsheba’s husband and I am once again reassured that His ways are not our ways. (Isaiah 55:8) That some reap rewards and survive miraculously on earth, but that for others their reward will be in heaven (Matthew 5:12).

Bathsheba’s husband didn’t live to work through the battle of forgiveness to the king he so faithfully served and was betrayed by. That would have been a different story. Instead, he was killed on purpose by the man he was fighting for and also got his wife pregnant.

To be cheated on and murdered seems bad enough, right? But, to be cheated on and killed by the man known as the man after God’s own heart? What a story. Talk about collateral damage.

We love King David and feel sorry for Bathsheba’s husband. And, I can’t wait to hug them both in heaven. Doesn’t that seem like a very strange meeting for the two men after their story? With nothing but forgiveness and understanding in their hearts for each other. A story only God could orchestrate and redeem. But, He does and He will.

I don’t share this to add questions to God’s motives, but to remind us that we will never understand it all this side of heaven. We aren’t meant to. When innocent children get hurt or killed. When bad things happen to good people. When corruption is elected and runs rampant. When we just don’t understand…

We are humble humans living God’s story, whatever that is. He uses us in spite of ourselves, our sins, our struggles, and our tragedies. Somehow, in His sovereignty and love, He alone will make it perfect.

This Mama’s Prayer…

baptism

6/4/16

To my Abby,

You have no idea how much this day means to me. I know you’re young. I also know that your decision to be baptized is as clear as it can possibly be at the ripe age of 10 years old.

You’ve told me that today means washing away your sins. That’s true. You’ve also told me that today means that you and Jesus will get closer and closer. That is also true. But, like we’ve also discussed, we need to do our part to continue to foster that relationship.

Just like you, I was baptized while attending the same school you do, in this same church. In this very same baptistery. I also believe I made the decision as clearly as I possibly could at the time. Then, life happened.

I need you to know that you are the reason I got rebaptized. When I held you in my arms and stared at you in your crib, I knew I needed God more than ever in my life. How on earth would I be able to raise you to love, lean on, and honor God if I wasn’t? I knew, in that moment, that I had allowed our relationship to wither. It was you that made me a mom and it was you that brought my heart back to Jesus. For you, I am forever grateful.

I know God never left me, but I went about my life not checking in with Him, not growing with Him, not seeking Him. You, Abby, changed all that for me. The love I have for you opened my heart to God’s unfathomable love for me and put me back on the path of relentless pursuit with my Jesus.

I pray there are many big events I’ll get to witness in your life. Graduations, first cars, jobs, moves, boyfriends, possibly a wedding, and maybe even children of your own. I’m sure I’ll cry at each one. But, one thing I can say about today is that this relationship that you are allowing in your heart and declaring as your own can, will, and should affect them all. This is my prayer as your mom.

I pray that your relationship with God trumps all others. He wants to lead you. My prayer is that you let Him. I pray that each decision you make in your life reflects the one you’re making today. I know how hard that is. And, if one blessed day we do this again, I will be right here crying tears of joy like I am today that you are choosing and walking with the Lord. As a parent now, I realize that there truly is no greater joy…..

This is huge baby girl. For you, for me, and for Jesus. He is here, He loves you, and He will never leave you. I am praising God for this day!

My life changer. My Abby.